Pairing: Kurt/Blaine, Finn/Rachel, Sam/Mercedes, Mike/Tina, Artie/Brittany, background Brittany/Santana,
Genre: Romance/Drama/AU, Slash (obviously)
Rating: eventual NC-17
Spoilers: Up to Season 2 Episode 22 (New York)
Overall Story Warnings: Violence, Strong Language, homophobic and biophobic language, explicit sex, underage drinking and drug use, high risk sexual behavior, emotional manipulation, bullying, racial slurs, implied suicidal thoughts...will add appropriate warnings for individual chapters
Summary: What Blaine Anderson wants, Blaine Anderson gets and from the moment he meets Kurt Hummel on the stairs at Dalton Academy he's determined that the beautifully broken boy will be no exception. When lust turns to love and Kurt becomes more than a conquest, Blaine shows just how far the boy who has everything is willing to go for love- the one thing he's never had.
A/N: Okay, this chapter is longer than the previous two and has a BUNCH of POV changes. I know not everyone likes that but it's necessary for this part of the story. There is also a bit of Klaine (finally, I know) and we hit a MAJOR part of the plot that impacts several of the characters. This chapter gets pretty intense and I'm sure you guys will have some strong feelings when you're done reading just please bear in mind that we're nowhere near the end of the story.
There is A LOT of mixing and twisting of canon in this chapter. The episodes of Furt and Theatricality are meshed together and then taken AU and the timeline has been thrown completely out the window. For example, Sue isn't principal (and there's a reason that it's Figgins which will become apparent in later chapters) events in Duets have already happened but the Kurt/Karofsky kiss from Never Been Kissed has NOT happened. Hopefully it's not too confusing for anyone.Disclaimer: I do not own Glee, or any of their characters.
Warnings: Internalized homophobia, language, mentions of violence, slight physical violence, homophobic language/slurs, slightly detailed description of a panic attack
Previous Chapters: Chapter One: Maybe We're Victims of Fate // Chapter Two: The Root of All Evil // Chapter Three: The Disease That We Crave // Chapter Four: Coffee Republic // Chapter Five: The End Of The Rave // Chapter Six: Hits and Misses // Chapter Seven: Running Up That Hill // Chapter Eight: The Hole That We Call Our Home //Chapter Nine: No excuses, No Apologies, No Regrets // Chapter Ten: Last Friday Night Was Like A G6 // Chapter Eleven: All Apologies // Chapter Twelve: Two Steps Forward, Two Steps Back // Chapter Thirteen: Come On Fallen Star // Chapter Fourteen: Sweet Dreams and Inevitable Realities // Chapter Fifteen: Explanations and Realizations // Chapter Sixteen: Without You I'm Nothing// Chapter Seventeen: Every Me and Every You// Chapter Eighteen: Begin As We Mean To Go On// Chapter Nineteen: Sugar, We're Going Down// Chapter Twenty: Watch The Bed Burn (Part I)// Chapter Twenty: Watch The Bed Burn (Part II)
Chapter Twenty: Sit Back and Watch the Bed Burn (Part Three)
Wow, you keep finding new and special ways to fail, don't you Soft Serve? I haven't heard from Prancy Smurf but if I do, I'll call Burt. You can kiss my dial tone.
That was mean, Finn. Kurt is my favorite ex-boyfriend and you're not even in my top ten favorite make out partners so if you two can't be friends anymore you need to know I'm on his side. Lord Tubbington and I are very disappointed in you.
That's all kinds of foul, yo. I can't believe you went out like that. I haven't heard from Kurt but you better watch your toes tomorrow. My wheels and I are gonna be looking for you.
You did what? Oh you just wait until I see you. You think I told Artie off? You haven't seen anything yet.
He's not here, Finn. And I don't know that I'd tell you if he were.
Damn Finnocence. When you fuck up you go for the gold. Look, even if you are dumbass you're still my bro so if you need a place to hide for awhile château de Puckerman is available. If I hear from him I'll call you. If Burt goes after you, there's no shame in running. I've found that most old dudes can only chase you a block or two before they get winded.
Is that what you think of my father's? That they're…I can't even say those words, Finn. I can't believe you would say those words. I love you but I don't like you very much right now and I would appreciate it if you didn't call me. I need time to…goodbye Finn.
You betta stay out of my sight because whenever I see you, I'mma cut you. I don't care if it's ten minutes or ten years from now, I'mma cut you and I'mma cut you deep.
I can't believe you. I honestly can't believe you. You…don't talk to me. I don't even…just don't talk to me. Kurt's my best friend and you, as of now, you're nothing to me. And you better pray he's okay because if he's not, what went down between me and Karofsky in the locker room is nothing compared to what I'm gonna do you. Kurt liked you. He thought you were a good guy, so did I. But you're not. You know what, you're worse than Karofsky and the rest of those guys because they never pretended to be any better than they are.
Finn had spent the better part of an hour making phone calls and being chewed out by every member of New Directions. He was sure most of his friends hated him and to top it off he had no idea where he stood with Rachel. He had one person left to call and he didn't anticipate things going any better with Quinn than they had with anyone else.
"Quinn," he said as soon she picked up. "It's Finn. Listen, is Kurt there? If he is we really need him to come home or at least call, but really to come."
"Finn," Quinn said sharply. "You're rambling. What's wrong?"
Finn took a deep breath. "I…Kurt and I got into it with Karofsky and Lewis at Breadstix-"
"Oh my God, Finn! Are you okay? Why are you looking for Kurt? Did they…did they drag him off somewhere?"
Finn blinked. "No, no it wasn't that kind of fight. Well, a little but not too bad. We just…See Sam cancelled on Kurt because he had to babysit and so Kurt took me to Breadstix in Sam's place so we could go over stuff for the wedding and have some bro time, you know?"
"Charming," Quinn said wryly.
"Anyway," Finn continued, "Lewis and Karofsky came over to our table and started giving us crap about being on a date and which one of us was the girl and…I just…I got mad and it was embarrassing because everyone was looking at us and I…"
"Oh Finn," Quinn said softly. "Please tell me you stood up to them."
Finn squeezed the phone. "I…did at first," he said. "But they just wouldn't stop. And Kurt kept trying to make me leave and I was just so mad and I…I didn't mean to hurt him, Quinn. I swear I didn't."
"You hurt Kurt?"
"I…I said some really nasty things and he…he took off and no one's seen him. Burt's called him like a million times and he won't answer and it's bad, Quinn. Burt's worried and sad and pissed and my mom is all quiet and disappointed in me. Rachel might dump me and Puck's the only person in Glee who doesn't want my ass on a platter-"
"Your head Finn," Quinn interrupted. "Your head on a platter."
"Whatever body part doesn't matter, point is they all want it. They'll probably be a lynch mob waiting for me when I get to school tomorrow."
"What," Quinn hesitated. "What exactly did you do?"
"I fought with Karofsky. We pushed each other and he just…he was so mad. I don't know what his problem is. It's like he's on some kind of personal mission when it comes to Kurt. Like one of those missiles that lock onto its target and just keep going after it until it blows it up. But um…we just…we argued. Kurt did too, for a little while. Then Karofsky told me to come out of the closet and called me a flamer and I saw people giving me these looks, like I was…dirty or something. It made me mad and made me feel…ashamed."
"So people looked at you like you and your friends look at Kurt and what, Finn? You couldn't take it? Kurt takes it every day."
"I know that!" Finn exploded. "I just…I got angry. I wasn't thinking. I just wanted them stop talking and calling me names and for people to stop looking at me like I'd personally offended them by just like, being in the same room breathing their air and I…I said some stuff."
"Stuff like what?"
"I said…I said I wasn't a queer and some…other stuff. I called Kurt a fag."
"Oh Finn," Quinn said sadly. "Why would you say something so ugly and hurtful?"
"I told you! I was mad and embarrassed and I just…I wasn't thinking. I swear I wasn't trying to hurt him. I just wanted everything to stop. I just wanted the teasing and the dirty looks and the feeling bad to stop."
"I'm sure Kurt feels that way all the time," Quinn said bitterly. "Finn, I know you. You never mean to hurt anyone and yet you keep finding spectacular ways to cause people pain."
"I know you want to tell me how much I suck right now-"
"No, I don't," Quinn cut him off quickly. "It won't do any good. I know what's it's like to make such a horrific mistake that you don't even recognize yourself as the person who did such a terrible thing. I'm not gonna judge you, Finn because I can't. That's not my place. I do want to help though, if I can."
Finn blinked. Ever since she had gotten pregnant, lied to everyone and given Beth up for adoption, Quinn had been different. Sometimes she was like the popular Regina George-esque cheerleader she'd always been, sometimes she seemed really sad and lost and other times she was like a new, improved, sweeter version of herself. Finn never knew what to expect from her anymore.
"Th-Thanks. But I don't know what any of us can do. I called everyone and no one's heard from him."
Quinn was quiet for a moment. "Finn," she said slowly, "has anyone called Blaine?"
Finn smacked himself on the forehead. "No! I... don't have the dude's number though. I don't think anyone does except Kurt."
Quinn was quiet for a few moments. "Thad might. Give me a minute."
Finn held onto the line, praying that Thad could come through and that Blaine would either be with Kurt or know where he was.
After several minutes Quinn came back on the line. "I got Blaine's number. It's 614-555-7624. Finn…if I were you I'd let Burt be the one to call."
Finn swallowed, knowing Quinn was right. Neither Kurt nor Blaine would be too receptive to him and Burt needed to talk to his son and make sure he was alright.
Burt, Finn realized with a pang, was probably the only person who could convince Kurt that it was safe for him to come home.
"Thanks Quinn. I really owe you one," Finn said.
"No you don't Finn," Quinn said softly. "Like I said, I know you. You're better than who you were tonight, who you've been for the last few weeks, I know you are."
"You're the only one who thinks that," Finn said sadly. "Everyone else thinks I'm awful."
"What you did and what you've been doing is awful," Quinn said bluntly. "But you're not. I know what it's like for people to judge you based on the worst thing you've ever done. All you can do is hold your head high and prove them wrong. And yes, you have a lot to make up for but I believe you can do it. I'll help you anyway I can, but I won't lie to you. You did a horrible thing and no one is going to forgive or forget just because you're sorry and you want them to."
"You're gonna have a lot to make up for, especially with Kurt," Quinn continued. "You are going to have to earn back everyone's trust and respect one bit at a time. It won't be easy and you'll want to give up but if you really mean it when you say you're sorry, you'll stick it out and do what it takes to prove that you deserve a second chance."
"Thank you," Finn said again. "I…you deserve it. Your second chance. You totally deserve it."
"I fought for it. You fight for yours."
"I will. I am. I…I hate this," Finn confessed. "I hate that I can't be like Sam or Puck and just not care that Kurt's gay. I don't hate him for it, I just…it doesn't make sense to me. Like boobs and girls are awesome and I don't understand how Kurt can be a guy and not want to…it just doesn't make sense and I hate feeling like a bad person for being uncomfortable and not understanding and I hate that I'm uncomfortable in the first place."
"Then do something about it," Quinn replied. "Finn, the fact that you want to change; that you want to understand puts you miles ahead of creeps like Lewis. You know you're wrong and admitting that and wanting to change it is half the battle."
"My mom…well the whole family…is going to a PFLAG meeting," Finn admitted. "And Puck gave me some hotline numbers to call and websites to look up."
Finn explained as best he could. "That's a really good start Finn," Quinn said encouragingly when he had finished.
"Burt…he kind of…I don't think they'll get married. If I can't…if I don't change me and my mom are gonna lose the best thing that's happened to us in a long time."
"Then you have one more reason to fight," Quinn pointed out.
"What if…what if I'm just broken?"
"You're not broken," Quinn said. "You're just…uninformed and isolated. Kurt's the only out gay kid in Lima. The only other person you know that has gay relatives is Rachel and something tells me you wouldn't be very comfortable telling her certain things."
"Yeah," Finn said softly. "Some of the stuff…it would hurt her feelings or make her think I think bad stuff about her dads."
"Do you?" Quinn asked.
"Not really," Finn said. "Like I said…mostly I just don't understand."
"Maybe PFLAG is exactly what you need," Quinn said. "You'll get to talk to other people who have family members who are gay or lesbian and you'll get to ask questions and speak freely. Maybe you'll meet other people who struggled like you are and you can ask how they found the road to acceptance. Maybe you'll find understanding and your uncomfortable feelings will change once that happens."
"Maybe," Finn said. "I mean, it would be nice to get my questions answered. I feel too weird trying to talk to Kurt or Burt and there's no way I'm asking either of Rachel's dads some of the questions I have. And…it would be cool to meet other siblings who maybe can tell me how they handled their bro or sis being bullied. I think," Finn said slowly, "I think this PFLAG place might be good for me and good for our family. I mean, the only other gay kid Kurt knows is Blaine and he's a total jerk that's just trying to get in his pants-"
"And you just went dangerously off course," Quinn interrupted. "Regardless of how you feel about Blaine, whatever happens with the two of them is their business and Kurt's decision. If it helps any, you should know Kurt isn't throwing himself at Blaine. He's going slow."
"Good," Finn breathed. "And not because of the gay thing, but because Blaine is a total ass."
"Takes one to know one," Quinn joked. "Okay, now give that number to Burt and let him see if Kurt's with Blaine. And Finn? I'm here for you if you need me."
"Thanks Quinn," Finn said softly before hanging up.
"Burt!" he yelled.
"Did you find him?" Burt asked anxiously as he ran into the room.
"No," Finn admitted. "I ah…I told everyone what I did. They would have heard about it anyway and…it needed to come from me. And Quinn got me Blaine's phone number so you can call him and-"
"Give me the number," Burt said already reaching for the phone and holding his hand out to Finn.
Burt dialed as quickly as he could with shaking fingers. The phone only rang twice before Blaine picked it up.
"Blaine," Burt cut him off. "This is Burt Hummel. Kurt…have you heard from my boy?"
"Fuck," Blaine swore. "I mean, I'm so sorry Mr. Hummel. It didn't even occur to me to call you. I called Kurt earlier and he when he answered he was incredibly upset. It concerned me so I had a friend come with me so he could drive Kurt's Navigator back-trust me when I say Kurt was in no condition to be behind the wheel- and picked him up and brought him back to my house-"
Burt felt as if his knees were going to give out. "He's with you? He's safe?"
"Yes sir. Yes he's with me and he's safe. I promise you I would never let anything happen to him. He's asleep…he…I know he would have called you if he'd been thinking clearly. It's just…tonight's been rough on him."
"Why didn't you bring him home?" Burt asked sharply.
"He didn't want to go home," Blaine said bluntly. "He didn't think he'd be safe there. Mr. Hummel, I don't know how much you know, if anything, about what happened tonight but when we talked on the phone Kurt was crying so hard and such a mess that he couldn't even make a coherent sentence. I legitimately thought he'd been attacked, that's how bad he sounded. And after I got him here he almost had a panic attack telling me what happened. After seeing him like that I wasn't going to force him to go home if he didn't want to."
Burt dragged a hand over his face. "This is his home," Burt said lowly. "He's always safe here."
"With all due respect sir, Kurt disagreed."
The words hit Burt like a physical blow. His son hadn't wanted to come home. He hadn't felt safe. "He…I know what Finn said to him," Burt said slowly.
"Then you know why he didn't feel safe coming home," Blaine said.
"Yeah kid, I get it. But he needs to know he is safe here. We…we got some family stuff to work out."
"I understand that. And I'd never stand in the way of that. But sir, Kurt cried himself to sleep," Blaine said strongly. "He was exhausted and he's finally getting some rest. I promise you I'll bring him home tomorrow but just, please let him stay here so can get some rest tonight."
Burt was torn. He wanted Kurt home. He wanted to take him in his arms and take away his pain. He wanted to promise him that home always had been and always would be a safe place. He wanted to see for himself that his baby boy was in one piece.
And he wanted him far away from Blaine and Blaine's bed.
Burt wasn't a fool. He wasn't deluding himself into thinking Kurt was tucked away in a guest room. From the quiet, controlled way he was speaking, Blaine was probably lying right next to Kurt. Images of exactly how Blaine might "comfort" Kurt played through Burt's head and made him flinch. He was barely ready for Kurt to be dating; Kurt sharing a bed and possibly his body with a boy both of them hardly knew was almost more than Burt could take.
But he also knew that they all might need the night to decompress and process the events of the night. Burt understood that Kurt needed to be where he felt safe and right now, as much as that pained Burt to admit, Kurt felt safe with Blaine.
"Kurt has permission to sleep-just sleep-at your house," Burt said as he rallied all his restraint and self control to say the hardest words he'd ever said where his son was concerned. "When he's ready, you bring him home tomorrow, understand me? I-I'll call him out absent to McKinley tomorrow."
There was a pronounced pause on the other side of the line as if Blaine had expected to have to work harder to convince Burt. "Trust me sir, all we're going to do is sleep."
"Son, admitting you're in bed with my kid isn't exactly conducive to me not driving to Westerville and dragging him home," Burt said tiredly. "Just…respect him. He's upset. He's in no state to make any kind of major decisions. Do not push him, do not pressure him, do not take advantage of him or they will never find your body. We clear?"
"Alright then," Burt said before he changed his mind. "And Blaine? Thank you for taking care of him."
There was another small silence before Blaine answered softly, "You don't have to thank me. I wouldn't want anyone else taking care of him tonight and I know Kurt wouldn't have wanted anyone else to see him like that."
Burt's eyebrows shot up and scrubbed his hand over his face. The absolute certainty and poorly concealed possession in Blaine's voice and slight challenge in Blaine's statement had him almost changing his mind about allowing Kurt to stay. As far as Burt was concerned the two teens hadn't been seeing each other long enough for any of the things Blaine's statement implied to be happening. They weren't, to Burt's knowledge, even officially boyfriends. All of this was moving too quickly for Burt's liking and he resolved to broach the subject with Kurt.
"Just stop talking past the close, kid," Burt said quietly. "You tell Kurt to call me when he wakes up."
"Night Blaine," Burt said and damn wasn't that awkward.
"Goodnight sir," Blaine said before hanging up the phone with a gentle click.
"You did good," Carole said softly coming and putting her arms around him. "Finn's asleep. Thank you for giving him a second chance. I know that was hard for you."
"I love that boy," Burt said, kissing Carole's hands. "I've been where he is. But I won't have him chasing Kurt out of his home."
"But if we're gonna do this family thing we gotta hang on through sunshine and rain," Burt continued. "I gotta believe we'll all come out the other side okay."
"I think so too. We raised good boys. They'll be fine and so will we. I think we made the right choices tonight."
"Then why is everything in me screaming to get in my car and go get my kid?" Burt groaned.
"Because he's your baby," Carole replied. "But he's not a baby, honey and Kurt's a smart kid. He isn't going to do anything he's uncomfortable with and you have to trust him to know his limits."
"I don't know if I trust Blaine to respect those limits."
"For tonight honey you're going to have to."
"Jesus, I'm not ready for any of this."
"Ready or not, honey Kurt's dating. There are going to be boys and fights and heartbreaks and the whole nine yards. It's also more likely than not that some point there will be sex. We'll have to cross those bridges when we get to them and you're going to have to accept that your baby isn't a baby anymore. Now you need to stop working yourself up and come to bed. It's been a long night and we're all exhausted."
Burt checked the locks, turned off the lights and followed his fiancé into their bedroom hoping that a good night's sleep would help put the heartache and horror of the day behind them.
A/N 2: So I'm guessing you have all gathered your torches and pitchforks lol. I just want you to keep in mind a couple of things. First, I'm not "bashing" Finn just because I don't particularly care for him in canon (strangely though, I tend to love fanon Finn) It's a personal pet peeve of mine when authors use their fics specifically to bash a character or pairing they don't like. I find it off putting so I try not to do it. But to me there's a difference between "bashing" and highlighting the negative ACTUAL CANON elements of a character (to me it veers into bashing when you twist the character so much they bear no resemblance to the canon character and might as well be an OC) . I said from the very beginning that for the first few chapters Finn, Will and Rachel would have the more negative aspects of their personalities played up for plot purposes. I also said those characters weren't the villains of the story and that in later chapters more positive representations of them would begin appearing. I think for Will and Rachel you've seen them have their revelations and turn a bit of a corner. While they won't be "perfect" the more positive parts of who they are will begin shining through.
Finn isn't as simple because in canon Finn had certain attitudes/beliefs that I wanted to delve into. I said from the onset that there would be certain elements from canon in the story and two of them were going to be (what I see as) Finn's latent homophobia and a version of the basement incident. I also said that Finn was going to go on a journey in this story and that there wasn't going to be an instant, red shower curtain style redemption for him. Finn is at a crossroads. He's young and he knows what he wants to be (a good guy, a leader, a strong enough person to do the right thing) but no idea how to get there. The fact that he wants to change and accepts that he needs to change isn't enough. He has no idea how and that's gonna take effort, education and time. He may not be one of my favorites but I don't think Finn is an inherently bad person. I just think that he's a character that does bad things and never really suffers any consequences for them. You can't "grand gesture" your way to character development or "grand gesture" away things that have caused other people pain. So no, Finn isn't going to get to perform a solo or play hero and all be forgiven in this story, but he's also not the devil incarnate. Change is difficult and for a kid even more so. I will say, for those of you that want to kill him, give Finn some time and the benefit of the doubt. I"m trying to write him in a way that makes him flawed but not irredeemable, hopefully I'm succeeding at that.
Karofsky is in much the same boat as Finn. I make no secret of the fact that I'm not a Dave fan but he's not the villain in this story and I'm trying not to let my personal bias bleed through. Much like with Finn I'm trying to give him layers and write him with a bit of sympathy and humanity. Dave isn't as heavily featured as Finn although he does play a pivotal part in the story. I hope that for people who are fans of his it isn't too uncomfortable to read his portrayal in this fic. He's NOT going to go all "crazy, psycho, killer stalker Dave". IMO he isn't going to be significantly worse than he was in canon.
Finally, I know these last three weren't very Klaine heavy but they were necessary. Klaine will be much more prominently featured in the rest of the story, starting with the next chapter...where Kurt and Jasper finally meet. And not under the best of circumstance...dun dun dun.
Also...remember this story IS semi-dark Blaine. Yes, that is a hint about some of what's to come :)